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Isolation

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"... and like I can make someone else feel the same way about me."

you know, it's really hard sometimes, struggling with a person who never made you feel wanted, but then when you don't know how else to say "I'm hurt" to them, because you're scared they'll just get mad at you, so you pour it into your art... but then they call you "passive-aggressive" and claim you're "expecting them to read your mind". Then it really makes you wonder if that's true...? Maybe you were just using your art for expression, because that's what you do, and you didn't know how else to express yourself anymore. Maybe you were being passive-aggressive. Maybe you did want them to read your mind, just this once. And then all these thoughts swirl around in your head, thoughts of how you're such a bad person, and even if you needed to get away from them, they had a point, and their words always cut through you like hot iron through butter. But you're alone in your thoughts, and the one person left that you feel like you can turn to, just sort of passes it off as a 'fall down, get back up, dust yourself off and move on with your life, you earned it.'

But it's not that simple, it's never that simple. It doesn't feel that simple, and it won't for a long time.

And all you want is someone to hold you, and comfort you, baby you and soothe you and make you feel safe, for once. Make you feel spoiled, make you feel special and important.  And you wish that you were a better person, so that you felt like you could do the same for someone else. 
But you're not that good a person, and there's no one you can turn to for comfort, and you're expected to grow up and take your lumps, rather than want to be spoiled, and it just gets to be too much sometimes. And you break down and cry. Because what else can you do?
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BrokenMelody13's avatar
Strong emotions but that's what I love of this drawing
-hugs-